Leaving your kid for the first time

When it comes to being a mom I would say I am very easy going. I am not overbearing, but at times I can be a worry bug. I think all moms can be at some point. After I had Dekker I was still working as an esthetician in a small salon which meant leaving Dekker with other people that I trusted. Leaving him with other people such as my mom and mother in law was EASY. I never feared for a second that he would not be well taken care of. Thanks to them for raising my husband and I; I never questioned there ability to take care of my own. It was not until today that I left Dekker with a stranger. Being a stay at home mom is a blessing, but of course I need my own time too which made me get to the part where I recently got a gym membership.( I know what you are thinking.. yes typical New Years resolution.. No shame here) Today was my first time taking Dekker with me and letting him stay at the children’s activity center while I got ” mommy time”.  Now what you must know is Dekker has such an outgoing personality that of course he went straight to the lady at the activity center. Things were looking great, until I suddenly got into the gym and decided that I was going to pick the machine right next to the glass wall where I could see him. I knew this probably was not the best choice, but I was feeling like that overbearing mom for the first time. It was strange and I had never felt this way before. There was a few times where I wanted to just go get him when I saw him standing by the gate or maybe it was those nachos they were eating in the lobby that were calling my name, either way I pushed through my work out until I was done. Everything went just fine, and sometimes you just got to push yourself. For all you overbearing moms.. I feel you! Next time I will not be working out where I can see him or those scrumptious cheese nachos.

Enjoy your weekends!

xo

 

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